I'm moving ever-forward in my job. Leaving Target was the best decision I've made in awhile.


The other decision I'm glad I made is staying with Ethan.

It's so comforting to turn over in the middle of the night and have someone lying there next to you who loves you as much as you love them.

I am such a girl sometimes.




In unrelated TMI, I had cramps so bad last night I had to take the day off from work today. Are there drugs for this, I wanted to die last night. It's like what am I 16, who takes a day off for this?

End of 2003
End of 2004
End of 2005
End of 2006
End of 2007


( End of 2008 survey + top 10 (women only this year) )

On to 2009.

THIS IS NOT MY ICON WHERE IS YOU-CHAN WHO IS THIS PERSON IN THIS RANDOM ICON THAT IS NOT MINE.


EDIT: NEVER MIND THERE WAS A GLITCH AND IT'S BACK AND OH GOD IS IT OLD WTF.

EDIT 2: WHY IS THIS NOT-MINE ICON BACK AGAIN???

WTF GUYS.

I come back to the internets and Leah Dizon is preggers and married to some dude who says he's 29 but looks 50 if he is a day and I check the KAT-TUN news and Jin is practically going solo but other that that NOTHING HAS CHANGED IN THE FANDOM and WTF WHEN IS YASU GONNA STOP FIGHTING WITH KA-YU AND GO BACK TO JANNE ALREADY (you so totally know that's what this is all about) and I never updated about my life which is TOTALLY ROCKIN'.

THINGS OF INTEREST IN STEPHI'S LIFE:
-I moved in with my boyfriend
-I am in love with him
-I am in love with myself
-We have really good sex

::everyone de-friends Stephi::


Happy day-after-Halloween, don't forget to turn your clocks back, and hope everyone's having good times, 'cause I know I am.

Newish layout: cozypenguin and adorbable bio page.


Ethan continues to prove himself as the most supportive, amazing person in my life. I am so in love with him and I don't know what I've done to deserve him. Through the good times and the amazingly bad ones, he still stands by my side.

I can't imagine my life without him.

When we wake up together, everything feels perfect.

OMG A POST.

I figure I've probably been cut by most of my f-list due to my lack of posting. Whatever. You must not be that important anyway!


So basically I have been away from fandom for like 1238721893127 years, so now I have a totally different, casual perspective on things, which is kinda cool. Related, I think KAT-TUN's new single is actually gonna be something I listen to, even though it's totally popp-y, cause it sounds like "Thriller" and is Jin-centric and you *know* it's gonna have crack-tastic dancing.

I'm behind in the world of Janne but they have a tendency to be cyclical in releases, even during solo projects so it shouldn't be hard to catch up.



Ethan is pretty much my life right now, and I mean that in a very positive way. I never in a million years thought I'd be in a relationship like this and, even if he's the only person who can make me cry, he's also the only person who makes me feel this happy.

He also totally stalks me on this but never leaves even an anonymous comment because he's a douchebag. :)

I'm happy.

Okay, so , Justin Timberlake makes about the stupidest faces EVER and you pretty much should close your eyes when he's performing cause he looks like a total douche, but I am so in love with THIS live performance it's ridiculous.




Ethan and I are like. A couple now. And things are going well; I can't explain.

I'm having health problems again but I don't think it's anything serious.

I'm fucking things up with my friendships, regularly, because I don't return phonecalls/texts.

I'm behind in this season's jdramas and just finished watching the Johnny's Countdown. Jin's hot and I love Nagase.

There's a girl who works at Roadhouse who looks like Leah Dizon.

I'm a different person than I was a year ago.




In other news, I don't update and you don't care.

End of 2003
End of 2004
End of 2005
End of 2006


( End of 2007 survey + other year-end things as is tradition )

Ever onward to 2008.

So I wonder how long I'll have to type before we lose electricity... This is the thing I hate about thunderstorms. Well, mainly because my street basically loses electricity at the drop of a hat.



So for the first time in my life, I've actually felt the itch to leave home. It's not like I'm excited to leave my family or want to have to do things on my own or pay rent or whatever. It's just that I want to be able to come and go as I please without having to lie or answer 20 questions. It's like, hi, I'm 22, do I really have to explain myself.



I have a lot of things to figure out lately anyway. Everyday it's something different and every time I try to figure myself out, something else comes along to confuse me. I don't know what I want out of life sometimes and it's coming very close to me having to make some decisions I'm not totally ready for.

Hmm.

Life without LJ is starting to become commonplace, I fear. I suppose that's fine though, because LJ is becoming a dictatorship anyway :/

I feel like so much has happened since my last update, but when you write it all down it seems trivial somehow, I don't know.




New temp layout! It's actually the same layout with a new header and new bio header. I'm lazy even though this took longer than it should have in its simplicity :/ I originally wanted Toma for a temp layout or to make a legit layout with Jin, but somehow, there's Hikaru. Or whatever his real name is(!) Crazy secretive COAT boys. Kinda miss my Leah though...




So for my birthday on Wed, my mom bought me the Guess purse I've been in love with but haven't been able to find because they stopped making that style. Totally in love. I also got 2 cakes and free drinks and a free lunch and some $$. And then they announced Jin's drama and I watched the cartoonKT Okinawa SP and all was right with the world.




Um... on the work front, I continue to make good bad decisions and continue to get kicked out of places that serve alcohol during work outings, etc. Jessica quit and I'm bitter, but I miss the girl like you wouldn't believe. Not that there's anything wrong with the new girl per se, she's just not Jess. There seems to be a domino effect with people leaving Target/my Target and I'm getting sad.

There's probably more I could talk about but once again, it seems trivial now.




So I said that Yamada Tarou was the drama to watch this season, and while I'm still rec-ing it like no tomorrow, everyone should really be watching HanaKimi, too. Once you get past the really horrible plot line, the drama is just so full of crack. Toma absolutely steals the show; he is one adorable mofo.

Speaking of crack. ARASHI's "Happiness" PV is right up there with "kitto daijoubu" in terms of GAY SPARKLY CRACK and it's hard for ARASHI to ever top themselves, so.



LET ME FANGIRL OVER JIN. I've been waiting for this drama announcement since before he came back, so this is no surprise but it is still happy. And I also like Jin's SE7EN!haircut. And Jin can still dance as long as it's choreographed. And Jin on Shounen Club reminds me of the good old days. And if that performance of "Six Senses" was live, it was GREAT. And I wouldn't mind if KAT-TUN kept doing 3x3 units because JinxKokixNakamaru is GRAND.



OMG. ka-yu. I LOVE his new mini-album, srsly. I thought like, Idk he was gonna suck real bad as a vocalist but he actually doesn't and he rocks pretty hard and yeah. I've basically been playing that non-stop. And GOLF-MIKE's new Japanese album which is so painfully pop, but I can't stop playing it and "rin rin SAMUARAI" is so so shiny.




So yeah. I've started and edited posts about 28374923482 times over the last few weeks and uh... yeah. This is what we ended up with. Sry for the extreme fgtry or whatever.

...And I don't know why my grammar deteriorates the more I type.

OMG. LJ. I think I was on an accidental hiatus(!!)

And I just had to skip=340. WRYYYY.


So. Firstly. Janne Da Arc. I had actually scanned the FOOL'S MATE mag but then someone else posted them so I didn't post mine, but is anyone interested in the Really Big Versions where you can actually read the kanji and I scanned the small pics real big for no reason whatsoever? I can always hoard them for myself but I figured I'd throw it out there. At any rate, SO GLAD I get the mag because yasu is fucking smoking hot in it *_*

Secondly, I'm in love with the Resting Club blog convos. The kiyo-you-shuji updating circle is A+.

Thirdly, I'm in love with Jin being Jin. First I see him gettin crunk with Maroon5, then he starts showing off his skillz with Ne-Yo, and my God. Jin actually *learned* something in the US and now I'm just confused about his personality.

Forth, I finished Tokkyu Tanaka and ProDai. TT was actually really cute and had a typical Japanese ending and you walk away satisfied but a little lamed out, but still happy. ProDai? Still confused about. I mean it sort of ends well, but not really, and there are so many plotholes you just keep having this ? face. But yes, Yamapi was cute as hell in it, so.

Fifth, I'm watching Bambino! from last season and from this season I'm watching HanaKimi and Yamada Taro Monogatari.They all seem srsly great so far, but YTM takes the cake for being *the* drama this season, so far. It's sort of depressing but cute and srsly WTH is up with Sho's character being so damn gay for no reason. Totally loving on this one. <-but currently behind in all 3 because it's taking me so long to back-up my PC and w/e. Still waiting for the KoichixNakamaru drama because, hello. Koichi and Nakamaru.



ANYWAY. I have RL things going on, but I think it would be safer *not* discussing them, currently. I apologize for the impromtu 4-week hiatus and the fact that *this* is the post you're coming back to.

WELLLLL~~~~~ at least enjoy THESE INCREDIBLY SEXY PICS of my girl, Leah. >< .



[EDIT] Added the FOOL'S MATE scans in .zip form for those who want it: SS | MU
Apologies for any dust or bleed-through I couldn't edit out :/ [/EDIT]

Oh yasu. Why does your band have to be ABC? Now everytime I see Acid Black Cherry abbreviated I keep thinking Acrobat Boys Club. I. What.


Ok. So can we talk about how Jin still fails at singing (though not as bad as Kame's been since Jin came back...). Maybe if he stopped chainsmoking and having sex right before every performance he could sing? But srsly. He's not much better than when he left. Actually, he may be worse. He just doesn't get as much to sing as he used to. Wth Jin. I'm losing my lust for your voice. He only sounds good when he's moaning which pretty much tells me all I need to know about his little LA trip.

Also. I want to hear these "American Jokes" Koki is blabbering on about.

And finally. Wasn't Ne-Yo supposed to be on this week's episode of cartoon KAT-TUN with some new segment? And wasn't the SMILE pt 2 thing supposed to be next week? Why am I waiting now? Fine, w/e, lie to me JE fandom. Are you lying about next month's Shounen Clubs too???


I just spilled Airborne all over my shirt. And it doesn't smell like anything, which disturbs me somehow.


What's with all the damn spiders lately? Don't they understand this is my personal area?? Please to be not invading my personal space kthx.


So I started watching Tokkyu Tanaka again. I actually think this show is really cute and Chiaki definitely grows on you. You know, once you get over the bangs and her being freakishly tall and foreign-looking. And her shitty-ass fashion sense wth. Anyway, I pretty much only sat through this for Koki but it's become quite entertaining. I'd like to get back to ProDai, but I'm momentarily pissed off at that whole situation so I'm just gonna finish TT first and then go back to it. Even though Yamapi keeps posting random spoilers in his blog like a moron.

Speaking of blogs, I totally love you-chan's blog. He always posts non-censored pictures that make me lol. Like that one he just posted with like, his producers or whoever. With his long curls lololololol. It's funny cause it's you-chan.

I was also thinking about Janne's fanclub again and if it's more worth it to join now that they're doing individual projects. I really don't know what kind of benefit I would get not speaking Japanese though, unless the pictures are really entertaining or something. Idk I've actually seen very little of the fanclub stuff cause it never gets posted so... eh.



Should hopefully be getting back to the doctor tomorrow to tell them their drugs fail and make me better dammit. Can I blame the nurse practitioner? Cause I'm going to. Ugh. This sickness is the worst. It's especially bad because it doesn't really hurt anywhere, it's just irritating and it's uncomfortable though not painful to talk and sing. And as you know, that is my life right there.


So my roots are growing out something fierce and I really want to dye my hair again. But the color didn't fade much surprisingly. I'm attributing it to my current shampoo (which is Tsubaki, btw, I wanted to see what all the rage was about. it's actually not bad). I definitely want it shorter though, because I'm a tool and short hair is in this season. But since my skin tone is so light, I have to stick with black because that brown color that's so in probably would look weird on me, idk. But black is in too so black it is.



So has anyone else noticed that some of the off-shots in WinkUp are also in Duet? I only really noticed because I actually looked at everything pretty thoroughly this month and also it was my first time actually going through Duet not online. I was like. I've already seen this kiddie pr0n.


Foobar is still the sexiest friggin media player I've ever used. Oh, PanelsUI, how have I gone all these years without you?



So my credit limit for Capital One went up again. I'm up to $1,500. Which is not great, admitedly, but I've only had credit going for a year, so.


I say "so" way too much and WHY IS THIS ENTRY SO POINTLESSLY LONG.

You know what sentence I really hate?

"Not to be racist, but..."

Why bother saying that if you're going to make a racist remark?

Either make the remark or not but stop making excuses.

:/




In other news, wonder if I *do* have a minor relapse of mono. Eh, maybe not.



I could really use some Akamepi pr0n in my life. And subtitles for cartoon KAT-TUN. True, ep 10 was fine un-subbed, but it's taking so long and pretty soon 11 will be out and I can't watch 11 without subs at all and- ::bricked:: You know what? Just get me some Akamepi pr0n.

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How long did I plan on going on without knowing THIS COMM existed?

::headdesk::

I could have saved massive amounts of time direct downloading. even if this week's ep isn't up yet. but w/e




Have I mentioned lately how much ka-yu makes me happy? No I haven't. Well. I'm bringing back the ka-yu love today.

I feel as though I've been viewing the world through a vaseline-coated lense this week; everything seeming too blurry to really have any idea what's going on. This four-day weekend has been a blur. I have a little bit of cabin-fever but I don't want to get up. I'm sick again. My whole house is sick. I'm sick of everything.

I've been less productive this weekend than I think I've been my whole life. My room is still a mess, none of my PC projects have been touched, I didn't hang out with anyone, and my dramas remain unwatched.

I've lost weight though. Not enough. Not toned. But it's gone, some of it.

I feel like I'm drifting away from everyone again. But then, maybe it's that time of year.

I still have Karen's graduation card in my room.



I watched some Japanese variety shows this weekend, though not many. I watched a full episode of Music Station. That Stephanie girl is pretty fug but she is one damn good singer. I think Ueto Aya is a lovely actress but she can't sing. KAT-TUN can't sing *or* dance. I'm still in love with Jin.

I'm not used to yasu looking VK at ALL, but I can't help being enamoured. Maybe it's some sort of identiy crisis, I don't know, but it's a side of yasu I don't mind seeing.


LJ is pissing me off *royally*. Even though the whole Strikethough thing didn't affect me or really anyone/thing on my flist, it still pisses me off. I think I may make several annoying illegal-content posts soon to see if I get kicked off. After all, I have permanent account so why the hell would they give a fuck about me. And the new log-in page makes me want to eat children.


I'm sick of all my music. I never want to listen to any of it. I need new Acid Black Cherry. I need new Jin. Did I mention I like "Your side"? It rocks harder than "yorokobi no uta". Except for the NEWS-ish chorus, which I don't care for. And the "yorokobi no uta" PV makes me LOL. I think Jin needs a solo song. Where are the fancams for KAT-TUN's lives??

I want Koda Kumi's new single without having to join new communities. I want the Amuro Namie PV that was on Music Station.

I want to go to Japan but not be treated like some gaijin.

I want a shirt that matches my new sandals.

I want. A lot.

omg wtf.

Life has been... whatever.

Steve is back at work so my hours have decreased again but my being boss is now over. For better or worse I don't know.

Sunday marked the first time the Sisterhood have been together in... god, how long has it been? 1 year? 2? Well, it was missing a few links, but then, when aren't we? oramgepanda managed to out-thin us all! ;) Go Joann!

My dad goes in on Monday to have an epidural in his spine. Hopefully this will make him feel better; I know some people swear by it.

My mom got a paper cut in her eye, oh about 12 years ago and it ripped open again this week so she is in immense amounts of pain and also pretty much blind right now. So she basically can't function too well.

I think my sickness is relapsing, as I have seen some white spots making their second grand appearance on my tonsils. Am gargling with vinegar and cayenne pepper. Cause that's the kind of person I am. God, my family is a mess :/

My sister is off to the prom today! She wasn't that excited, but I was. She looked so pretty and I'm posting pics of her later cause I'm a ho like that, and you just have to deal. :)


I have not been on the computer, like really been on, in a long time and I'm behind in everything. I really have to go through my flist like, yesterday.

Follow-up post to come?

WHY MIYAVI. WHY.

Originally I was intrigued by this band because I've always had the idea of a Japanese super-band in my head, but seeing miyavi in the line-up for NO REASON pisses me off. Of all the people in the known universe they could have picked, they picked miyavi??? Wth. Clearly, Yoshiki has lost his head. Even Mana would have made more sense y/n? Except for the whole Gackt thing, w/e, w/e.



In other news, still sick.

Watched Shrek 3 again today. Still not impressed but yeah. It def has its moments.



Can we talk about how I totally *wasn't* expecting new pictures(plural) of Jin in my Myojo this month? There were few, but they were new. Which means that next month will be back to business as usual. YAY.



OH GET THIS SHIT. Next week I'm working 40 hrs and the next. THE NEXT. is a new record. FIFTEEN HOURS. 15 FUCKING HOURS. are you kidding me. That is less that HALF of what I need to keep my health insurance. I. WHAT. NO.




Let's talk about what a bitch the new nurse practitioner at my doctor's is. She was a bitch to my mom when I had my mom call the dr for me on friday (I couldn't go.....) and also to my dad. SO. regardless of whether or not I'm 100% sick on Tuesday, I'm thinking of going anyway just to tell my real doctor what a piece of shit she is. I'm so totally *not* going through the experience of a nurse pratitioner like I had to with my last doctor. Hey doctor. You don't get paid $289749324732984724 to NOT take care of me when I come in.



I've been really suxx0rs about commenting lately. Don't worry; soon I'll be better and I'll have a 2372198371298327 hour vacation or sth :/